A Conversation of Aspirations

Decisions conflicting with our intuition impairs the vision
Have a destination but will not ever reach it
Too many detours and obstacles in between it
Hope turns ito desparity
Dreams become nightmares resulting in the absence of clarity
The human condition yearns for a sense of belonging
A connection of love and acceptance is all we are longing
Happiness is difficult to obtain
Struggle prevents the brain to stay sane
Crippled and wounded by past mistakes
Lost in the world and out of place
Individuals that share the same desires
Missing reasoning that fuels the fire
Make promises that you will never surrender
Remaining stagnant in the idea of a better forever
Life becomes a never ending lecture
Searching for gold but there is no map in this adventure
Approval becomes crucial in this society that is so superficial
We adapt and dismiss any morals participating in the everyday ritual
We all were giving life and in the end it will be taken
We are giving the middle to form whatever we wish to make it
Some of us want to be successful
Some see the glass empty some full
I just know I do not want to be regretful
Others just stick to boring routines like a cycle menstrual
So there is always religion
You could pray for better living conditions
Counting the days until your relative is out of prison
Worried about a college tuition that will one day provide nutrition in the kitchen
Now we reminiscing wishing we did something different
Memories become irrelevant because the present is the only chance we are given
It seems no one will listen
You are all alone on an uncharted island with no rescue boat in the distance
Trying to be your own hero in this world of villains
They say with determination and persistence
Anything is possible
Its hard to believe when possibilities and opportunities become obsolete and illogical
In the rat race your trapped with no cheese
This life is a ride with ups and downs and all you want to do is scream
You plead for what you need
Breathe and bleed for what you believe
Never before have you achieved in receiving peace
So many worries you cannot enjoy living
Guilty by every jury the life sentence is unforgiving
Just pledge to me that you will continue to fight
Aspirations is all you have so hold on tight

Mysterious Belly Dancer

I see you smile 
Does that mean I make you feel good

All the while I'm wondering 

If I even should 

I make you laugh because you think I'm funny 

The matter of fact I'm trying to

Turn you into a love junkie 

Hesitant with my every move

Because the truth 

Is that you are someone I'm not willing to lose

Something about you

Can't wrap my mind around it

No replacement or substitute 

You got my heart don't know where you found it 

When I'm with you 

Everything else disappears

Caught in the moment 

Memories seem so clear 

I'm just hoping we didn't meet each other too young 

Because feelings like this only can occur once

I want your trust

It's not just lust

Take it slow we don't need to rush

I close my eyes

I see your face 

I cannot hide

I'm seeking your grace

Without you I'm out of place

Just waiting for the day

You come back to take me away

Walk or run

In winter cold or summer sun

Fly or climb

Rain or shine

I'm pursuing you until your mine 

When we kiss I'm lifted 

Hold my bliss grant my wishes 

You can't speak how you feel

But I'm willing to listen

I'm not illiterate but you can be hard to read

I hope I never have to chuck up the deuce I'm not talking peace 

I want you to myself I dont care if it's a form of greed 

Follow my lead

I can take you to serenity 

If belonging is what you need

Start with me

Ever felt a passion so real it becomes hard to breathe 

Ever get caught up so deep 

You are buried underneath

Your dreams

Becoming reality 

Holding you tight 

I hear your heart speak 

It's empty 

With a sign that pleads no 

Entering 

Yearning for someone to make a key

To set your love free

Distant from everyone who is persistent 

In giving you attention 

Experiencing but not learning from its lessons

Your words are your weapons

Close yourself up for your own protection 

Coming off aggressive 

So the pain is deflected

Pain aimed in your direction 

You can't show affection

But I'm here still

Trying to make a decision 

Waiting on you I'm not trying to risk it

The feelings I miss it

But I already cleaned up a murder scene with no whiteness 

You got me to the point I can't ask about your past

 Because I get jealous of you being with another man

I can't ask you what is the furthest you've gone 

Because I know I'm not the only one

What you think of me though

You never answer 

I wonder if I will ever know

The mysterious belly dancer 

Hope you don't portray the wrong image 

I can come as a surprise no ribbon 

Given our current position 

I question if it's worth it

Thinking of you you seem so perfect 

But I know something worth having doesn't come easy 

But you thinking the same isn't easy believing 

I think so much about you I don't think you understand 

To get me on your mind I do everything I can 

I try to win you over 

With so many methods 

With my actions and the way I form a sentence 

I am kind and intelligent 

But how much I offer never seemed so relevant 

I know I can care too much

I can come too strong 

It can be so tough 

Getting this to last long

I'm dedicated and patient 

I'v been in the past relationships

The memories I can't erase em

Damaged yet ready to go

I'm hoping to see sunshine at the end of our road  

Your laugh brings me to paradise 

I don't need a vacation to take pressures off my life

I focus on every detail 

I don't want my plan to fail

Because I know I am two years older

I know you are not allowed to date 

I know girls grow colder

The longer the nice guy stays

It's easier for them to get over

So I try to change

Adjust to keep your interest 

I can't be the same

Because last time I was taken advantage of by the minute 

I see your independence 

And strong mentality 

I have heard your intentions 

All along my fantasy 

Every summer you go to Mexico

Will I be able to let go

I don't won't to be the one from back home 

You have aspirations and goals just like me 

I admire every asset that's why I can't leave 

I think about things you never will 

I know it's temporary I'm trying to keep time still

Next year I'm willing to make it work 

Hopefully you will in return 

It probably not one of your concerns 

That is something I have come to learn 

Used to telling people how I feel 

Now more then ever I try to conceal 

Because I'm on a high that is surreal 

I don't even know how I feel 

I keep thinking maybe if your mom meets me it will be different 

She will like me and let me visit 

So every time we see each other it isn't a lie or secret 

We can't even talk on the phone what kind of relationship is it

Most guys tell me that couldn't do what I am

That's just me because you are something I must have 

Now I know I'm going to college 

And so much will happen 

Live in the fast lane 

With no belt fastened 

But I'm falling 

Like a dummy that's crashing 

Right out of the fairy tale like magic 

I'm pushing as far as I can 

Hope this is an idea you can stand 

I mean I am caught in between 

Feelings and hope 

Reasons that provoke 

My present confusion 

But your so my type it creates an illusion 

That proves it

I am clueless

- Jigsaw

Life's Beautiful Twisted Scheme

In this life we are given free will
Youth is temporary so I am trying to keep time still
Preserve a smile from my grandfather
Mental pictures of my peers before we move on to what else our lives offers
It is invisible and controls our lives
It is invincible and we cannot hide
Time is such an overlooked theme of today
It brings change and there is no means of escape
Whether we choose to or not we must age
Decay and await our fate
Time is money and precious
From every hour and second
Time can be wasted and lost
It teaches lessons but we must interpret the message
We were once children forced to become men
Get educated and find love and settle in
Raise our own fruit until the cycle repeats again
Until memories will be the only evidence left
Same numbers on the clock
They each tell a different story
Same theme different plot
Watching us all grow must be so rewarding
From a baby in the crib
To first day of school meeting new kids
Our first words to speeches
From learning to becoming the one who teaches
Shooting star wishes to our first kisses
Innocence oh how I miss it
Older we get the more difficulties intercepts
That is how we progress so there should be no regret
That high school diploma to that wedding celebration
Being a home owner from being in your parents basement
First job to that promotion
Having grandchildren that make you feel important
Life is beautiful it is easy to notice
Yesterday is in the past
Tomorrow has yet to pass
Just try to make today last
Live in the moments
Before they are gone
You can not postpone the present
It cannot be cloned
Seize the opportunities as they present them self
Make some stories for you to tell
Time tells us where to go
But we decide what each day will hold
I hear relatives reminisce
I see the missing presence of bliss
I smell the love from the kiss of soft lips
I touch the rush of adrenaline given
I taste the waste of corruption and sinning
But time brings change so I follow my intuition
Count my blessings and make my life
With each second is a gift from time
A wise man once told me we must make our life special
We form the gate and key to our potential
So promise myself to never settle
 I do not believe in expectations
My hopes and dreams are not segregated
Pace will change and I am patient
I live only once and I must savor it
Very observant to my surroundings
I understand the human condition all around me
Yearn for acceptance
Belonging somewhere is we are all destined
Waiting on the time to come
Where pain ceases and we feel love
Time has a plan
We may not like it
Give it a chance
We should not fight it
When everything seems irrelevant and insignificant
When depression makes you want to give in
Look at the positive
Time is honest
When you feel empty and obsolete
Let time find the missing piece
The piece you need that will complete
Life's Beautiful Twisted Scheme

- Jigsaw